Hello Jeans

The scale is.not.moving.
Not even in the slightest.

Well

maybe a little bit...like .02 ounces every week. We aren't talking POUNDS of weight sliding off my body. We are literally talking about the weight equal to a slice of turkey.

HOWEVER
I pulled the bin out that has been hiding under my bed for about 15 months now. You have one too, so don't judge. It's filled with NY&Co Jeans, Lane Bryant Jeans, Old Navy Jeans...lovely jeans that I easily paid upwards of 50.00 a pair for (well, maybe not the ON jeans, but definitely the other two). They lay in the bin, neatly folded, waiting for their reprieve.

My mother keeps telling me that my stomach has gone down. But you know, she's my mom and trying to be a supporter in my weightloss, so I kind of take what she says with a grain of salt cause she will always tell me that I'm beautiful, cause she's my mom.
But finally, I gave in and let her words sink in.

So I wrestled that bin out and put it on the bed. I initially went straight for the lid and then I stopped mid reach.
What if this was all just in my head? What if I was truly being delusional and the minute I put a pair of jeans on that won't budge past my knee, it will send me spiraling into an oreo-ladden depression?
I folded my arms and stepped back, arguing with myself.

Aloud.

"You are just setting yourself up for disappointment"
"This will be a disaster"
"Better grab your phone incase you need talked down from the Oreo ledge"
"Oh, just shut the eff up and open the damn lid, you are talking to yourself again and the dog is worried"

worried doxie head tilt

Hmmm.

So I reached over and pulled the lid off much like you'd pull off a band-aid - quick, holding your breath and closing your eyes.
As I rifled through the bin, there were some pairs of jeans that just looking at, I had a snowballs chance in hell (like the sweetheart Old Navy line with the straight leg that I have cuffed up that I used to wear with my Gianni Bini Heels). But there were 3 pairs that looked like they had some potential.
POTENTIAL!
And guess what kids?

All three went over the knee.
All three went over the thighs.
All three went over the hips.
And ALL THREE ZIPPED.

So while the scale may not be moving, my mother's vision is still perfect and I am LOSING inches!

Small Update

Even though the number on the scale doesn’t show progress, the fact that you haven’t given up is progress in itself.

My number isn't moving much. To be honest, I haven't put a lot of any effort into exercising in the last two weeks. I have however, increased my water intake and during the week, still really watch what I am eating and stick to my points.

Weekends, however, are the downfall.

It's always something. There is always something to do, somewhere to go and it's like I close the car door and instantly shut my mind off of watching what I eat. 

And then I feel like a complete shit.

With everything else in my life not exactly going as planned (when does it ever?) I sincerely don't need one more thing to make me feel terrible, so you'd think that I'd be more proactive in my weight loss. 

But, nope. Not the emotional eater that I am.  So please, if you see me out and about stuffing my face, walk up to me and ask me how the weight loss is going....better yet, yank whatever calorie-heavy food I have in my hand away! 

One of my ultimate goals is to be able to buy a bra and panty set that is sexy and matches. Something like this : 

September Goals

Wow, the summer has come and gone. My first summer as a mom. It's hard to think that I accomplished anything with my son this summer because he was, afterall, still an infant. However, we did manage to go to the zoo, play on some swings, feel the grass between our toes and even go swimming!

This weekend is the 165th Annual Canfield Fair where mostly fried foods and heart-attacks-on-a-stick will be up for grabs. I am going to do everything within my power to stay on track with my WW points while I am there. That being said, I thought I'd jot down my September goals and in October, we'll see what how well I did.

Goal Number 1 : To exercise 4 days a week (either gym or at home) burning at least 500 calories a day
Goal Number 2:  To stick to my WW points but also track my calories to ensure that I'm eating no more              than 1400 calories
Goal Number 3 : If I have successfully stuck to 1 & 2, I should attain this goal of Losing 5 lbs

I have also found a new blog to keep me motivated called : 344pounds.com . The guy is fantastic and is all about counting calories and exercising. Thats it. He literally dropped 100 pounds in 6 months. He is a real person still struggling with real issues and still eating what he wants. He is all around, pretty amazing.

Starting Weight (SW) 218.12
Current Weight (CW) 215
Goal Weight 1 (GW1) 205
GW2 190
GW3 180
GW 4 170
Ultimate Goal Weight : 145

Make the decision, then do something - no matter how small - toward accomplishing what you want.