I'm not sure how long it has a been since my last post but rest assured, gentle readers, I have been diligent in my weight loss struggle. I've been struggling to stick to my goals. Struggling to find the energy to exercise after working all day. Struggling to not eat after a certain time. Just plain struggling.
I feel like I am letting everyone down but the person i am letting down the most is myself. I told my mother the other day that I will just embrace the fat and deal but the reality is i can't look at my self in the mirror anymore. My esteem and confidence have been weighed down by all this extra fat. I keep lying to myself that I'm not fat.
My jeans tell a different story.